To Be Home Is To Be The Best Me

Far away from my sweet pup and my cottage in Chapel Hill, NC, I am sitting in a hostel in Wicker Park, Chicago. My endeavor here is centered around how and why I am choosing to take responsibility for my part in contributing to a positive cultural transformation underway. This shift I am referring to is how our society is poised at the "seed-time of a new personalist culture."

Firstly, what is seed-time? And what is a personalist culture? Seed-time is the moment of a new beginning. When a seed is planted in the ground and the surrounding conditions are just right -- soil, sunlight, water -- it will sprout at the right time and eventually become a strong tree, plant or living entity. In the same way, societies and individuals encounter seed-time -- moments in history in which multiple aspects of society are increasingly aligned around specific growth transformations.

This begs the question: In what direction is humanity currently transforming? Theodore Rosak, in People/Planet (see below for context in excerpt), introduces the idea that we are living in the fertile time of a new cultural transformation in which multiple aspects of society are increasingly personalized around individuals according to their desires and uniqueness. This also includes where and how these individual traits intersect with the deeper ecological and technological spheres.

This transformation of individual lifestyle design is underway in technology as we customize our phones and measure our unique body activities through wearables. It's underway in the creation of new business models as they meet needs of individual consumers. It's underway in the advancements of personalized medicine, as we tailor drugs and health solutions suited for unique genetic sequences and diseases.

And yet, customizing a phone, and other desired experiences, doesn't foster true cultivation of a person's unique identity.


Although, a new personalized learning process could.


Alright, so what does this have to do with why I am living in a hostel in Wicker Park? Because as an individual, I am owning my own growth as I strategize and design my life forward.

If we entertain Rosak's prophetic vision, then spiritually, ecologically, biologically and technologically, the time has come for each individual to discover their uniqueness and find a way to channel their energy system into vocations that align their individual fulfillment with the fulfillment of universal progress.

Dabbling with band-aid solutions, like flexible work schedules and workplace perks, will continue to prove insufficient at fulfilling human potentials. Therefore, this is one reason I chose to leave the security of a multinational corporate job to join the pioneering leaders at Experience Institute who are transforming learning models with the bold mission to authentically bring out the best in individuals. Although in one perspective, this could be viewed as a selfish motive because I want to bring out the best in myself, my true belief is that continually growing into an infinite series of better versions of myself is truly the greatest gift I could give to all of humanity, all entities and all life.

Hidden in the chaotic industrialized workplace, I was truly seeking to know myself and then construct my identity accordingly. But now, I am taking stance to own the responsibility myself, as I embrace the interconnectedness of all things, and discover my unique aspirations that are entangled within biology, technology and consciousness, and to live them out vividly with bold purpose.

Experience Institute offers a solid community of support and tools to help trigger self-discovery and shape key skills and abilities. Evenmoreso, the team cultivates the rare space for individuals to learn how to shine their brightest.


As the light that shines farthest often shines brightest at home, we must learn to find our home within ourselves.


I'm on my way home. And I'm ready to design it as my own.

Reference Theodore Roszak's words in 1979:

It may only be a certain nagging sense that the world you live in does not fit. The job you hold, the education you receive, the institutions that claim authority over you (the government, the corporations, the unions, the courts, the welfare system), all these may seem to have been crudely designed for everybody in general, but for nobody in person, least of all for you.
These may come and go as fleeting, private irritations.
Nevertheless, they are signs that the great change I speak of is at work in your experience, nourishing a certain brash assurance in you that you have a right to be handled with care, a right to the employment, education, time and space you need to find your peculiar style, a right to participate directly in the decisions that shape your life even if exercising that right means endless delay and disruption.
But where do you think these rights come from? How long do you think they have existed? Which is really to ask, how long do you think your experience of uniqueness has existed in the world? Perhaps you sense that such rights would have been seen as preposterous luxuries by your grandparents, perhaps even by your parents. But do you know they would have been regarded as utterly incomprehensible no more than a century ago, even as a kind of intolerable insanity? Would you be surprised to discover that this right you feel so certain is yours, this right to have your uniqueness respected, perhaps even cultivated, is not at all a simple extension of traditional values like civil liberty, equality, social democracy, which is precisely why it must now pit itself against so many institutions that were created to further those familiar ideals, but that it springs independently from another, far more mysterious source, one that reaches into the biological foundations of life.

(Excerpt from Person/Planet by Theodore Rosak)

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How and Why I Am Taking Lifestyle Design Very, Very Seriously.

I’ve always loved to sing along with Jethro Tull to their song, Skating Away On The Thin Ice of A New Day. There is one part in which the lyrics unfold:

...You were bred for humanity and sold to society. One day you’ll wake up, in the present day, a million generations removed from expectations of being who you really want to be....

I can genuinely say I experienced this awakening in my own life. This awareness didn’t come in the form of one ah-ha moment; rather it was a gradual self-discovery involving a series of realizations. Although there was a re-surfacing hopeful feeling that stayed with me, I found that embracing the reality that I didn’t like who I was becoming was largely riddled with pain, confusion and doubt.

Realization 1: I was surrounded by victims. At my corporate work environment, I noticed people using language that blamed others for why their situation wasn’t ideal or they would complain about being trapped in the rat race with no other life options. Over time, exposure to this perspective has the ability to be rather depressing. At home, my five-year relationship was crumbling as I discovered I’d been lied to. Once an initial lie was revealed, the rest seemed to come like a waterfall, literally knocking me down. My questions shifted from being curious about why people would lie to me, to different inquires, such as: Why am I attached to suffering? Why do I allow my dignity to be taken advantage of? Why am I continually a victim?

Realization 2: I have had a lifelong quest pursuing the prioritization of truth above consequence, yet ironically this pursuit led me right into the arms of deception. I wasn’t just surrounded by victims or simply acting like a victim, I actually was a victim. Deception feeds on victims and I was playing the role of a subconscious volunteer victim. I was allowing various forces to control my perspective.

Realization 3: In order to thrive in an environment where others were authentic and honest, I would have to change my identity. I’d have to interact with the world in a whole new way. This would involve shedding aspects of the environments that enabled my victimization, yet more importantly it involved taking the risk to live my absolute fullest potential.  

So I did. I quit the job where I was surrounded by people who felt trapped in narrow realities. I got out of the relationship that was enabling my victimization and woven with lies. And then I got in touch with my lost inner child, the one who loves exploring higher consciousness and seeing the multiverse through a lens of vibrational energy systems. I took accountability to follow that part of myself. This included getting deeply in tune with that authentic thread of my suppressed identity, a part I wanted to own up to and construct my entire life vocation around, yet had been allowing social constructs to override for a long time.

I’ve found it to be true that once the conviction has been made to pursue the truest parts of oneself, the multiverse conspires to help. 

Yet, to live the reality, does one have to forgo the dream?

Perhaps. However the beautiful part about that is that it ensures there is always space to create new dreams. As one architects these series of creative dreams into reality, over and over, it designs a life in which the boundaries between dreams and reality merge into a living space of freedom and enchantment.

During the next few months, I chose many wild and different ways to ensure I was holding myself accountable to stay on track with this new identity design. This included exploring with spiritual masters in the remote desert, conducting extensive thought-stream writing, studying my childhood brain programming, having deep and honest conversations with my parents as well as visiting friends and family all over the world. And in August of 2015, I joined a community of others who were also choosing to take full ownership as the authors of their lives and identities. As previously strangers, we assembled in a circle on a rooftop in Chicago, Illinois. Quickly no longer strangers, we became united as we vowed to support each other fully as we embarked on a year to discover and pursue our deepest dreams.

I’d like to bring this journey into the present moment. Right now, I am living in full of enchantment with un-before thinkable synergies. I am free. I am at the Raleigh Durham airport headed to a Consciousness Hacking event in Manhattan. My near-term plans include commitments to conferences and events in thought spaces I’ve never thought I could participate. In addition, the conversations I’ve been having with new human connections are of an entirely new caliber of curious quality. They are authentic, bold and honest. These are some of the exact frequencies I've been craving to be around. And it turns out there is an entire budding community that cares about the convergence of consciousness, technology and commerce. I am experiencing external feedback, in an invitational way, that I could in fact be part of this loving community that wants to heal the entire world... and that I could actually contribute too. Bits and pieces of my self-worth are finally being put together inside me and it’s ineffable. I’ve got an outrageous amount of work ahead to actualize my lifestyle design and construct my boldest identity, yet I feel the way I’m channeling my energy is finally in the direction of love, freedom and growth.

It’s my hope these words have planted a seed inside you to explore a more authentic version of yourself too. Why not step into a world without excuses? I’ll be calling all angels to surround you and loving you living your choice.

Now, back to Jethro Tull:

As you push off from the shore, won’t you turn your head once more, and make your peace with everyone? For those who choose to stay will live just one more day… to do the things they should have done. And as you cross the wilderness, spinning in your emptiness: you feel you have to pray. Looking for a sign that the universal mind (!) has written you into the passion play. Skating away on the thin ice of a new day.


7 Year Life Reset Button

Chapel Hill, NC

Hello 7 year reset, or what is perhaps more commonly referred to as a “seven year itch!” Why the number 7? Well, that’s a rabbit hole for another time. Today’s adventure is a reflection on what led me to break up with my job and from the path society had laid out for me and instead to follow my heart.

The desire for a life reset came nagging through my intuition, eventually becoming way more than what I could simply term a catchy phrase and laugh off. In fact, the pull for change became so annoying that I had to find a new way to deal with it, instead of just staying busy. So, with thanks to @starlag12 and @J_CameronLive for offering a tool to help obtain clarity, I began to write three full pages of thought streams every morning. This is not traditional journaling and it does not even entail attempts to make the writing eloquent. Rather, this process is all about generating a spontaneous flow and cleansing established thought patterns. By allowing a direct channel from my mind onto the paper, I was able to bypass the analytical brain and unproductive rumination cycles. Although analytical processes definitely have their shining place in effectiveness, what I needed at this point in time was a way to reach my inner voice. After a few weeks, the clarity became so strong that the consequence involved a happily welcomed confidence as well. I knew what I had to do.

Both my manager and boss at work had been exceptional champions for me and the thought of letting them and the team down made my stomach queasy. Yet, I felt strongly that if one really chooses the path to follow intuition and inner callings that it would likely entail letting people down along the way. Therefore, I would just have to find a way to do it gracefully. My meeting with my boss was pushed up to Monday morning. So there it was. It was Friday and I was going to resign on Monday. The two weekend days only brought more clarity.

The details of what led up to the original restless state of mind include aversion to conformity, frustration with the politics of the bureaucratic corporation I was involved, and other resistance you can imagine. Yet, ultimately, it was a re-surfacing innate feeling that this was not all my life was meant to be, that I have great talents that are not being used and that there really is a place in the world where these talents can both make a great positive impact to better the world while simultaneously generating personal autonomy and financial freedom in the process.

Now, it must be stated that the job I had was dynamic, mostly interesting, and the leadership with which I was aligned offered empowerment and cared for my well-being. This is part of what made the decision so tough. I didn’t just have a good job, I had a customized job at a leading healthcare company. And leadership seemed to mostly like me!

But, perhaps like the 7 year itch in relationships, sometimes the pull for change can occur so strongly that it can bring you to break up with situations that are even great ones, not just solely bad ones. So I changed the background of my cell phone screen to a picture of the ocean and the phrase “listen to the quiet pull from within” (great image by @heyamberrae) and began to believe in myself in a whole new way – and believe in my whole life too.

What’s next is mine to create. I’ve got a lot to do. Anchors aweigh.